I just realized a few days ago that I haven't taught anyone for the past 2 weeks. I got deactivated at work 😞  I've been talking to my bosses and I just need to do some things for them then I can go back to work. I feel really bad that I haven't been working. I haven't even learned Japanese or Russian for the last 3 weeks. I honestly want to say it's just because of my internet being bad and that I was busy in school. But I want to be honest with all of you and tell you guys that I have a problem. I didn't see myself as someone worthy to teach anyone else when I wasn't in a very good mental state. So I decided not to teach since I didn't think I could make anyone happy by forcing myself to teach despite not being happy myself. I guess I'll just leave it with me being very unhappy with my family and that I don't have their support. I mean it when I say support, not even financially. I've been starving myself a bit because I couldn't work and I couldn't help myself from my mental sickness. I waited for my mind to at least feel better before coming back. Now that I am coming back, I got a greeting from my bosses that my account was deactivated for not teaching. I'm really sorry. I hope I can see everyone again soon.

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