Today and yesterday are good days.

Just a little push more and I'll be there.

It's almost within my reach.

But it's going to be tough.

aia. I'm scared. but I need to be able to do it.

I need to do it!

Wish me luck!
ーメイコ

I know it's bad

and I shouldn't do it

but sometimes

I really fall in love with bases

Sometimes I play music, unexpectedly loud

but I can't get mad at myself because I love the sound.

I know I hurt my ears

but music is really irresistible to me

If I hear it crisp and it matches my preference.

I end up listening to a whole song on that volume.

This is the song that made me realize it.

I hope you guys enjoy the beat.
ーメイコ

YES YES YES YES YES YES YES!



OH MY GOD!



YES



FINALLY A CLEAN SKATE!



AFTER SUCH A LONG TIME



I'VE BEEN SOO WORRIED FOR HER



SINCE NHK TROPHY



I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!



I FEEL SOO TOTALLY HAPPY.



I'VE BEEN HEARING NOTHING BUT HER INJURIES LATELY



NOW I FEEL SUPER CONFIDENT



I LOVE THIS WOMAN



I FEEL SUPER HAPPY.



I need to calm down before talking about her properly.



sorry about this fan girl post haha.



I'll post hopefully later properly.



See you!



ーメイコ

I didn't mean to but I'm super busy lately



I mean I didn't do it on purpose.



Sorry.



It even took me until now to watch this.



There was something wrong even yesterday that I couldn't post



So sorry.



I love you guys.



 I love Satoko too.



I wish she does well on the Free! <3



ーメイコ

I didn't really expect to see something entertaining today after work.

not sure if I told mot of you,

I like watching basketball.

after doing the lesson notes today and eating,

I saw the guys here watching this.

The game is so interesting!

The scores are so tight!

Amazing both Japan and Philippines!

I wonder what Japanese people usually chant when basketball games happen.

When it isn't the national team playing.

Things like defence and stuff.

Do I have a student who's a basketball fan here?

Mind teaching me about it?

∑(⌒◇⌒；)

See you guys tomorrow!

ーメイコ

I'm currently doing my TESOL exams.

I feel like I need to finish these quickly.

I don't know maybe a Christmas gift for myself?

I haven't been working on it.

I'm just all work and all play.

No studying.

やばいこれ

Well thankfully, I finished 3.

I'm a bit so so on this.

I think I'm not really doing my best.

I understand the material easily so I'm not doing much effort.

This is one thing I really don't like about myself.

ーメイコ

Just some words I wish to learn

I don't know about others

but I've had some students discouraging me to learn Kanji.

Just to let you guys know,

that actually motivates me more.

Don't ever think it's not worthy to be learned.

Your language is beautiful.

Personally?

I wish I learned even earlier.

I only started using memrise again. I need to start over I think?

ーメイコ

Something just dawned on me this morning.

Dreams are kind of like hypnotism.

Like even though you know some things are not true

or

impossible to happen in real life

and it happens in your dream,

you still feel like it's real.

It was like a nightmare
now that I think about it.

Suddenly being informed I'd be going to Italy in a few days,

on the day I even planned to go out with a friend of mine even.

It seemed horrible to me. haha.

I kinda hate myself for falling for it.

I woke up not knowing what to do.

Like I thought I was really leaving next week.

ありえないです

絶対ムリ

I was really worried until it dawned on me it was just a dream

A nightmare

haha.

私もダメです

笑

ーメイコ

あの。I forgot to mention yesterday.

I finally got the gift I gave myself last month!

嬉しいです。٩(♡ε♡ )۶

超嬉しい　˭̡̞(◞⁎˃ᆺ˂)◞*♡
 I don't know what else to say but happy ♡

I even got a bonus flyer of 鋼の錬金術師。

幸せです　(ﾉ´ヮ´)ﾉ*:･ﾟ♡

ーメイコ

I'm not fine lately.

I've been thinking about not lying to my students about it.

But somehow I think students might think my health is something trivial they don't want to know about.

I always end up saying I'm fine.

Last night I ended up sleeping for only 3/4 hours.

I don't know what to do with myself.

I hope I can be truly fine. I kinda hate saying I am even though I'm not.

I'm gonna try to sleep early now. Good night
ーメイコ

I can't help myself but be a kid.

I don't know why but I've been reading lovely complex for 2 nights already

and I squeal like a little girl!

ugh I can't help it.

I think I'll always love this manga.

I haven't even read all of it (I started at the end)

yet I find myself squealing at the same moments I did 10 years ago.

haha I guess at least some things never change.
ーメイコ

Somehow.

I feel like I've been listing my achievements at work

Well. They are all I have lately

So I don't think I can really properly talk about anything but work.

aia. This might be all for today.

too tired

and

I did something wrong with my body.

I better rest now.

おやすみ

ー

I forgot to post yesterday.

I don't like the fact that lately I've been depending on coffee a bit.

I'm a bit acidic. I have gastric problems and stuff and knowing I drink coffee a lot.

It makes me a bit nervous for my health.

ーメイコ

Today was totally unexpected.

It's totally tiring

but totally fun.

It's my first time to play bowling today o(≧∇≦o)

It was totally not planned but everything fell to place

₍₍ ◝(●˙꒳˙●)◜ ₎₎

I totally sucked at it tho.

(੭ ˃̣̣̥ ㅂ˂̣̣̥)੭ु

I can't believe myself ٩(๑꒦ິȏ꒦ິ๑)۶

I was totally teaching my friend the rules but he ended up being better at it than me.

٩(இ ⌓ இ๑)۶

Now here I am 2 games with salonpas on my wrist. haha.

I feel so mad at my wrist haha at least win if you're gonna hurt like this

꒰๑•̥﹏•̥๑꒱

I tried my best haha. Hopefully next time I win! ۹(ÒہÓ)۶


Obviously, I got the ones above haha. I really couldn't believe it. he made 5 strikes!

引退します。笑

ーメイコ

OH MY GOD!

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT

本当？ありえない

I just watched episode 9 of Code Blue Season 3

全然ありえないよ！

I want to watch Episode 10 already!

( ≧Д≦)( ≧Д≦)( ≧Д≦)

I can't watch it yet tho!

There are no subs on it yet! I can't understand the drama by itself because of the medical terms

(;｀O´)o(;｀O´)o(;｀O´)o

I feel like crying! I hope someone finishes the sub soon

щ(ಥДಥщ)

When will it come?

ふう〜

Calm down Meiko. It'll come. Calm down.


See. They're calm. Calm down.

I feel like crying haha.


ーメイコ

(the gif was from a different episode.)

I just realized something a few days ago.

Japanese people make blogs a bit like this.

I don't know? To make it easier to read? (´−｀) ﾝｰ

I've been thinking about it? Maybe I should write like this?~ 〈(゜。゜)

If I do I think it would mostly consist of very long blog posts full of weird texts.

I have no way of knowing if this is better. (۶ꈨຶꎁꈨຶ )۶

Is there anyone out there that can react if this is a good idea? I'm a big worrywart!


This might be it for this post now (⌒◇⌒；)

For now, here's a picture of me in Manila last month.


じゃね


ーメイコ

I don't know why but I felt like sharing a video again. I don't really know what to talk about today because I'm a little bit under the weather and I didn't really know what to do with myself today. I was really pushing myself to be 元気 a while ago. I really wanted to make everyone feel good today so I tried my best to be happy. Today is not in vain tho I got good comments that made me happy as well. I guess another push for me to always move forward. Thank you everyone. From the bottom of my heart

ーメイコ

I don't think I can wait this for tomorrow. This is so fantastic ugh.

This is their first performance this season and yet it feels like it's the 2nd half of the season already! This is so amazing I'm so in love! I kind of forgot that Satoko was for next week. I thought she's gonna perform this week but then again I can always wait for next week. but now I get to see this glorious performance. I love it. I have no regrets. <3

Aia I also love Elena's performance this time! Aia! she deserves this. I'm a bit nervous for team Japan tho. Not sure if a lot of Japanese ladies will get to the GPF! Aia! I'm so nervous! I have a lot of skaters I like and want to win! I'm not even sure who to root for anymore! haha I'm so nervous! I'm not watching the Grand Prix series live so I'm scared I'm not sure what the scores are lately and the standings. haha I'm too nervous to think about it! Aia I'm still not gonna talk technical stuff and such. I'm thinking about doing it before and after the GPF. I'll talk about techniques and stuff that I find amazing. basically me nit picking. haha. I'll go and watch some others and come back tomorrow or something. I promised myself to watch Kamiki later. haha
ーメイコ

Right now I wish I know how to play or at least know the rules to shogi. I'm currently watching 3月のライオン 前編 I felt like watching Kamiki Ryunosuke after a long time! I really missed watching him so here I am now watching it. I still haven't watched the 2nd movie yet. I think I might watch it tomorrow instead. Uwaaaa! I feel like binge watching Kamiki movies! I forgot how much I love him actually. I guess talking about him a while ago in made me want to watch again. So here I am now wanting to watch almost a list of movies he acted in. I feel inadequate right now and want to watch more! I feel like I'm not a real fan right now. I even thought I watched that one with the Daruma san but then I realized I didn't! I guess I was excited for other manga adaptations. I really love manga adaptations even tho, like this one, I haven't read a lot of manga myself. Well I do feel like most of the time, the movies are works of their own. I don't think movies are supposed to follow everything from the manga. I think it's good they have their own path too. This might be it for me. Good night :)
ーメイコ

PS. I still haven't finished my review for pink to grey. aia. I think I might be in trouble here.

Somehow I want to say something about myself. I don't think I'll find somekind of love life for the next few years or so. There are people who are courting me and stuff. But I don't think they'll really be able to break my sell or something. I've been thinking about it and somehow I've been showing my bad sides lately to people. I don't want to be viewed as someone who is always nice anymore. I have to be honest and people have been abusing me and been using me because I seldom say no or I always empathise with others and help them out. I've gotten the feeling that when I'm nice people leave me after they are done getting what they want. I can't help but remember some people and I feel like I need to protect myself. I don't think what I'm doing is nice but I don't know who are there for me because of me anymore. I think it would be nice if people spend time with me despite pushing them away. But I guess if people can't take it, I guess I'm better off alone.
ーメイコ