Today isn't a really good day. There's a bit of a family issue so just when I decided to do some studying I can't actually focus because I'm conscious of the people around me. I just feel sad and frustrated right now. sorry if I can't post something positive today. I hope everyone else is having a good day tho. I hope everyone else has a good day. See you guys :)
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I feel like nothing more can be said than amazing. I feel happy I could watch this. I feel a bit sad tho because I can't watch it live because of work but really, I feel happy. I love Antonio Vivaldi. I love four seasons. And I love this guy. haha. I love that after his triple axel he directly made a spread eagle. It's really cool! I want to say something more cool but I don't know yet right now. I want to watch it more. I'm still waiting for the free skate tomorrow yet I'm already waiting for Internationaux de France where he will perform this again. I'm hoping he will be at the Grand Prix Finals. I can't imagine him and Yuzuru not being there together. aia. I'm so used to their little ritual at the Grand Prix Final podium already. oh please oh please. Anyways. this might be all for now. I'm afraid I'll talk about his program too much if I think about it. See you later!
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Today I don't know what to say today so today might just be a filler. I'm a bit under the weather today so I'm even going to post. I'll just post something I listened to a while ago. I'm thinking of posting lots of things a while ago but right now I'm a bit blank. I don't know what to say and feel right now so I'll just post this ok? I didn't understand the speech itself mostly but I kind of understand mostly what they were saying. I'm not even sure anymore. I'm tired. Good night
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I had a lot of open classes today, but I think that's ok because today I finished 16 grammar topics by myself this morning. And more on the way because I'm studying again. I also was able to watch some ItaJan when it was a bit too much for me. Last night I had 27 grammar points as well. Well most of what I'm reading are things I know of or concepts I already know of and just understanding now what they really mean. So I hope nobody gets mad at me for doing it too fast or something. I honestly understand most of them. I also plan on making a proper notebook as well to make sure everything I watched/listened to are correct. I am still far from confident in my speaking ability so I want to build a foundation. It just so happen most of what I'm reading and watching are concepts that are familiar already. I hope everything works out ok in the end. Well that might be all for now. I want to go back to my grammar lessons! See you!
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I ended up doing grammar lessons for today. There are some concepts that I know already but I guess learning everything properly is better I guess? I mean I understand mostly from what I listen to or observe. So I guess listening to a proper teacher about grammar gives perspective and sense to things properly. I should have really done things like this way before. I wasted a lot of learning time I guess. Well I can't help it. People have different conditions and mistakes. I better make it right now. I'll try to finish the first 50 lessons I guess? I mean most of them I know and just want to make sure of? who knows? Or I guess 30/40 mini lessons would be ok? I started at lesson 20 anyways. Sorry. I was planning on talking about what I did yesterday. Maybe I'll post it tomorrow but set the date to yesterday ok? I feel like if someone looks at my notes they wouldn't understand it, even a Japanese person wouldn't understand. haha. I'm really sorry an object that only Meiko understand is this (笑)
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I'm crying. I'm dying. hahahaha. I can't live on. hahahaha. as much as I want to post something. I don't think I'll be able to really put anything that is valuable because my mind is full of Peach girl. I've been waiting for this for months I guess. I can't believe it. I'm here now. I watched it, and honestly, I don't understand all of the conversations but I got the gist of most of it. Ugh! I can't believe it! I waited soo long for this. And I have to download it again because the ending got cut. haha. I can't believe it. The most important part wasn't shown completely. hahahaha This is the worst. 今テンションMAXだ（笑）すみません I don't know what else to do. haha I might make a review of it on the other blog I have. This might be all for now. I'm too happy right now.
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I wanted to share something I have been doing lately. I'm not sure how much I've stressed this but for me It's painfully obvious how much I've been saying I'm into Hey Say Jump lately right? I've been listening to their radio shows on YouTube for a few days already. That and 嵐の二宮和也の Bay Storm. There are no English translations, so I am semi forced to know what words are for what they really are. I try to get the sense of the conversations and I feel like I've been kinda getting better at it. I don't know maybe my vocabulary is getting better? I hope so. I'm going to do grammar lessons later tonight, but now I feel like challenging myself to listen/read radio shows. I don't know maybe this actually lets me focus better on the language rather than TV Shows like I used to. I'm more focused on the shows themselves rather than what they are saying, so I guess this is better? I don't also depend on English texts but Japanese texts, so maybe my kanji reading would also improve? I know I've been telling other students about it but I still want to share. For me learning Kanji is really essential and something important when learning Japanese. These radio shows are helping me so I recommend trying them for my friends who want to learn Japanese! :D Also a student of mine recommended to have bilingual news! I recommend this too but unlike the radio shows on YouTube, you can't see any texts. So you might tend to listen to it a lot more than you would. hmmm I think I might need to explain this a bit?
When I listen to radio shows on YouTube, as much as possible a try to read and listen at the same time, but sometimes there are texts that I feel like I can read, so before the member who gets to say the script I pause it first and try to read myself. I kind of reward myself if I hear them say the same thing as my guess. I also can write down exactly what they say and don't have to worry too much about getting the kanji wrong because it's right in front of me and I can somehow do furigana if I'm not familiar with the kanji I just wrote. For grammar? I'm actually trying to learn how to express, want, wish, need, command, requests etc recently so it also kind of give me clues on how to express those. I feel like I'm lucky if I can spot them. Or more like I make myself try to notice them. I really wish I can hold my own when trying to have conversations in Japanese. すごく2019年に日本に行きたい。I hope by then I can have normal conversations. Next year really! I will aim for JLPT! ೕ(`･୰･´) がんばります
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I'm seriously missing days now TwT I feel sad I couldn't do the everyday challenge kind of blog again. もう Next month! Really really! I wonder if I should even try to have like Christmas themed posts? I realized I don't have a lot of Halloween themed posts this month. I just wanted to share that that isn't really a big part of the culture in the Philippines. I realize I should have made a culture tag long ago. tsk tsk. I mean there are other things that I posted a long time that have something to do with culture. It didn't come to mind to make one. I don't think I'll be too enthusiastic to go back to old posts tho? I dunno. Well the most halloween themed I can get is another picture from last Tuesday. haha that might be all you can get from me. well for now. I better go and study something じゃね
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I don't know why, but I've been easy to vomit recently :( I don't want anyone to worry, but It's been happening a lot. Yesterday and today, I've been vomiting for a few. And a few weeks ago as well. I don't know. transparency's sake. I also tend to vomit when I'm happy more than when I'm upset. I'm a weird person. I don't know what to say for now. I'll leave it to this maybe. sorry for not being too informative for today and yesterday. I think I need to do some changes to myself.
There are soo many things that I did today that I'm not even sure what picture to show you guys! well. I'll leave you guys at least one.
I have a lot of things I can tell you guys but right now I'm tired. so maybe tomorrow? すごく嬉しいです。I hope everyone had a good day as well! :D 休みは終わりです
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I missed a day again o.o Well yesterday I had a guest. My half sister was here :) She went with her son here yesterday so we had a lot of fun yesterday. At first it was mostly her telling stories but then we decided to go to the mall. At first I was thinking her son might be bored so we decided to bring him to the arcade for a bit and it ended with me and my sister playing the games. haha. We enjoyed very much. I don't have pictures tho because I didn't have my phone. I was also lucky yesterday I got a chance to buy matcha Kitkat so everything is good now. I hope the week is good to me! :D I might blog again later :)
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Since I missed yesterday and I am kind of bored I was thinking maybe I should make like 2 posts? It's ok right? As much as I hate to admit it I'm turning into an adult who wants to do little girl activities she was never able to do as a kid. Can I be honest? I feel like there were lots of things I wasn't able to do as a kid. I wanted to play certain video games but I didn't have the CDs. I wanted certain toys but my mom never really buys toys for me. It was like a once in a year thing that I have to decide on when I'm on the mall or something. There are places I wanted to go to but I don't think my mom really like travelling too much like how I was always yearning for it since I was young. So I feel like recently I've been gifting myself all of the things I want for myself. Like my headphones, clothes, and all the random trinkets I have. Recently, I've been wanting to buy myself concert goods. I really want to buy some for myself. I feel sad I can't buy the newest concert goods from HSJ concert. I only had money after those pre selling of goods. I feel sad I don't think I'll be able to get the latest good. I wonder what to do? I'll try buying old goods or something. or maybe I'll go buy from the Arashi concert. This time I'll really be able to buy something. I'm not sure tho? I bought the Are You Happy Diary last year because it was functional. I'm not sure but I really want pen lights recently. I wonder if I should buy? I think they're not really functional but I still want them. Maybe because I've been watching so many concert videos lately that I feel like I might be in the concert itself if I watch it with a penlight. I feel childish but I feel really strongly about this. Aia. I feel like I'm going to work a lot just so I can start collecting pen lights. I don't think I'll collect posters too much? Maybe just one or 2 would be good for me o.o I don't know I'll think about it. For now, I'll go and enjoy what I can. じゃ。
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悔しいけど I missed a day. (；￣Д￣）I really wanted to complete October with at least one blog post a day. What happened last night? I started watching Code Blue 3. haha. I'm posting this now because I think I might watch again later. hahaha. I was enjoying it so much I slept really late last night. I don't even know how I am keeping myself awake right now. I am a coffee hater but I might just bring myself to drink some later. Who knows? aia. I hope I don't get sleepy after eating lunch. I'm just about to eat. Anyways I'm excited to watch Code Blue again later. I was very happy. Well I've been planning to watch it for a while now and a student of mine mentioned it, so I guess I took it as a sign to really watch it. I don't regret it! haha I just have a hard time watching really. So many medical terms and I have to pause a lot to understand mostly what is happening. I'm amazed that student of mine could follow. haha. it was hard. I'll watch it again later! For now I will eat lunch! haha! See you again tomorrow! :D
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Добрый вечер. I told a lot of you guys I'm learning Russian but I don't think I can do more than greet people and make cats to stuff. As much as I hate cats, the first thing most apps teach me is the animal I hate most so I have no choice but make sentences using cats in Russian. haha. I dunno why I felt like sharing right now. I'm sad and I don't want to make anyone else sad so I'll just share something random like this. Oh how did I learn Russian? Mostly from apps. and I have a friend from Kazakhstan. I don't get to talk to him as much as I talk with you guys tho. Most of the time we just greet each other. I don't know how much English he knows really. He doesn't like to tell stories and I don't know if he would understand my stories if I give him some. He's very nice tho. Oh I also have a friend from Azerbaijan but I don't know he doesn't talk to me anymore. He told me he likes me but I think that's just a joke.
I think the reason I can't really immerse myself in Russian is because I don't have a musician other than Чайковски that I listen to or follow. Don't get me wrong I listen to Tchaikovsky ritually. I'm not even sure what their pop music is like. I have been watching a lot of videos about Russia lately tho. I'm watching like those facts and stuff about Russia. I'm not sure I can have my own opinion when faced in a debate but I at least feel better that my opinion of Russia is not clouded by American filter anymore. I'm going to keep this blog short. I still need to work for freelance stuff. Byie
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I have to be honest. There are lots of days where I have lots of good classes. But in all honesty, not every class is good. Sometimes I feel even really bad about the classes. I feel really bad saying this but sometimes out of 16 classes, I have very good classes for 15 classes and I get this one class that is very unsatisfactory for me, I feel sad and unsettled at night despite having almost a very good day for most of the day. as much as I hate saying this, it really gets me down. I'm unsure whether it's my own fault that I'm unsatisfied or if it's the student's unsatisfied voices that gets me down? It really matters to me when my students are happy and are smiling. Maybe this might even have something to do with the post I had a few days ago where I'm not sure if kids like me when I teach. Kids are very honest and show their honest opinion when they are happy or not during class. I get really worried sometimes whenever I have classes with kids that aren't really very into classes. I know that studying is めんどくさい which is why I try my best to be a bit of silly during class. It makes me worried if kids are having classes with me and are still serious after I do a lot of silliness in class. Well. 不安です。でも大丈夫です。頑張りたいと思います。I'm not even sure if my Japanese is good again.
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I feel a bit unsettled and unsatisfied today. I'm not happy with today's performance. I'm a little too critical to myself? I'm not sure. For me it's not a good day. I'm happy to meet people who are very close to me today. I know it's the last day for the holiday and they chose to spend their time to me which makes me really happy. It's just I don't know why but I feel not I'm not being liked or something.
I want to share something. I was talking with a friend of mine and she kind of just switched some gears in my head and I can't help but sharing it here as well. People always say that in order to be happy, you need to stop listening or caring about what other people think about you and live your life like you want it to be. Uhm correct me if I'm wrong but I think this is a bit of a western ideology. She was asking me what I thought about her and our friend's image. Like what image do they give off. I told her that for me there is no malice in whatever they do. They're together as friends and I see nothing more than that. Why do I see them that way? because she told me her feelings about him and I know that is the truth. I would see them as what she says. I know how they look like and I know what kind of vibe they have as friends. Other people misinterpret that but I don't because she told me. I told her that what really matters is what she thinks. OK let me pause at this part.
This, in all honesty, is one of the hardest thing a Filipino person can truly achieve. She even confirmed what I thought by saying It's hard. I, in all honesty, agree with her because I need this advice myself. Without really thinking about it, I told her that there is nothing wrong in saying and thinking that it's hard. It's part of our culture. I told her that our friend isn't really like us because he grew up in South Africa then moved to Russia. He grew up in a place, that unlike us, aren't controlled. I'm not sure if anyone is taking this the wrong way. How do I say controlled? At a young age, our parents and environment tell us to be conscious of our surroundings. I'm not saying that in a positive way. It's our parents who are the ones who made us conscious of how others see us. We're too concerned of what they think that we started even thinking about how other people see us as well. If anyone wants to confront me about this please do so but I really believe that not everything our parents do, even if they think it's for the best, is not for our sake. They might even be doing it unconsciously but it's still their actions. I want to explain myself more but I think I've had enough of this topic for a little bit. I'll try to be ok tomorrow. It's a day off anyways. See you guys later.
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I want to share something. I was talking with a friend of mine and she kind of just switched some gears in my head and I can't help but sharing it here as well. People always say that in order to be happy, you need to stop listening or caring about what other people think about you and live your life like you want it to be. Uhm correct me if I'm wrong but I think this is a bit of a western ideology. She was asking me what I thought about her and our friend's image. Like what image do they give off. I told her that for me there is no malice in whatever they do. They're together as friends and I see nothing more than that. Why do I see them that way? because she told me her feelings about him and I know that is the truth. I would see them as what she says. I know how they look like and I know what kind of vibe they have as friends. Other people misinterpret that but I don't because she told me. I told her that what really matters is what she thinks. OK let me pause at this part.
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If there is something I am super thankful right now for having a job, it's the fact I wake up early without any aid. I don't know it's really automatic. My body even if I sleep in slightly different hours, it automatically wakes me up at about 5 am and another at 6. If I sleep a bit earlier, I might always wake up with no need to extend at 5 am. I am kinda aiming to sleep a bit earlier. If that happens and I can wake up very early with no sleepiness whatsoever. I am planning to try and jog for reals. I hope like 9pm? I'm hoping. I mean everyday at 10pm I'm already kinda tearing already from sleepiness. I think what I need is also to be physically tired. Who knows? Maybe it may make me super healthy? I mean jogging in the morning then yoga at night? I hope that works. I'm not sure when I should properly have a bath tho? haha that might be a bit confusing? I'm thinking whether before working in the morning or after having yoga at night? It's making me undecided. haha. Well for now I conveyed a kind of thankful feeling towards everybody. I don't know right now all I have is teaching. It keeps me grounded. So thank you. :) Just a picture of me waking up a few days ago.
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今日。。。ちょっと難しいです。I did not expect to teach almost all day to kids. I really wonder how much of them liked me o.o I'm scared I'll just be hated or something o.o I also got a little something a while ago. I didn't expect it too much anymore because I've been failing a lot recently. lol. but let me share anyways.
I'm not sure but maybe because I have bad comments. That's why I don't have too many students there. So they suggested I teach materials especially for them. I don't know what to expect yet. For now. I'll just say good night happy I've had クロッケ that I haven't eaten in a while. I'm happy. and I'm a little bit really tired. I kept watching いただきハイジャンプ after working and now I didn't realize I'm about to sleep already. I must be really tired. haha. I'll say good night now. :) おやすみ
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Today, I've been on a bit of a roller coaster. I feel happy that it is the first time in a while that I have full classes on a weekday. I feel happy because I have a lot of kids in my class today. But I think I'm starting to doubt whether kids like me or not. I'm not sure? Not all of the kids were smiling. I know I like to say ニコニコ知ってね whenever I talk to them. They don't smile too much tho? :( I wonder if how I teach is not too good for them. :( どうしようかな？I guess I need to think about it more tonight. I have lots of kids to talk to tomorrow it seems. Well I have to say today, almost everyone I talked to is new. Except one person. I wanted to share a bit what we talked about today because I became really excited and I did not expect it. So what was so special about our talk a while ago? I did not expect him to talk about an animal that is local in South America to be located in Japan. What am I talking about?
These adorable creatures called alpacas! I want to go to Japan like right now just so I can finally be able to see these cute creatures. I really thought they could only be found in South America. So that's why lots of Japanese shows and varieties show alpacas! I didn't know there were some in Japan! That's so cooooool! I've known about alpacas when I was in high school, I think. A friend of mine showed me pictures of alpacas and how fluffy they were. I even found a blog dedicated to alpacas, which is why I've always kinda wanted to see one in real life for a long time. It seems I don't need to go to South America anymore to see one! I can't wait for the time I go to Japan now! haha I feel like a kid wanting to go to the zoo. haha forgive me. I'm too excited. I have to be honest about something. I feel bad I haven't been doing my school work lately. I promise to do them next week! I promise to finish the last exam for work today. After that I don't know if I'll take exams there anymore. Next week, I promise to finish at least 4 exams on my certificate. I need to make it to the halfway mark! Ok I have a goal. I have to promise myself to do it! I hope everyone supports me! :D For now, I am going to work on my freelancing work. I hope to finish them tonight so I can focus on teaching tomorrow. See you guys tomorrow! :)
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Today, I kinda am still sick but a different reason. I'm sick because I have stomach cramps today. So yeah. Here is what I was I got myself yesterday
Yey! I feel like I'm rewarding myself of some sort. haha. sorry if this is what I keep posting about for the last few days. But really! I feel happy and lucky to have met everyone for the last few days :) I met a lot of new people the last few days and I just really want to express my gratitude because you all gave me your time :) I hope I can share more and more to a lot of you! I also didn't see until now that I just got 4.9 stars! wow! Thank you very much! 😘 Also I might sleep already. I suddenly got a lot of work from my freelancing job. and everyone knows cramps and 2 jobs don't work too well right? So I hope everyone has a good night because it might be a real comfy night tonight! it's raining 😍 Good night 😉 ❤️
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じつはきょうはちょっとたいへんだった。But I worked hard so I'll have another tag tomorrow :") I'm excited. hmmm. Nothing really special happened today. Oh I had a lot of new students today I was really happy talking to! if ever anyone of you read this I just want to say that today was really fun! I hope I was able to make everyone smile today :) Thank you very much for patronizing me. hmmm I don't have anything to share anymore really. So here's a picture of my table top looks like. It's kinda messy. but that might be all for tonight. I might go to sleep now! Good night :) <3
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It's my day off today! :D I wanted to share these pictures of my day today! :D Just a few snippets. I guess today is a good day. :)
A bit of a slow and sad day for me today. But something good did happen. I wasn't informed and it just suddenly popped up while I wasn't looking
It's funny because I was waiting for another tag. which I shared with you guys is Eiken, they told me a few days ago that I could be able to teach Eiken after I get the tag but I got this one earlier! haha. Who knows maybe on Wednesday there might be students who want to have TOEFL materials with me? haha. Well that might be the only positive thing I'll say for now. haha. I'm kind of in a low state right now. I even watched the season finale of Rick and Morty and I'm disappointed. Well, we can't all be happy right? See you!
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I realize how agreeable I really am. I was just having a discussion a while ago and here I am listening to what they like. haha. I don't know. I'm a little too low and I guess I have no love right now but love for my students. Thank you for cheering me up. Sorry if I can't share what I need cheering up from but thank you.
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