偶然に it's also been 1 month since I came back to DMM haha. so I dunno I just felt like posting again. haha. I'm hoping for a better month ahead :) Oh yeah for anyone who'll take the EIKEN Test, I'll be a teacher with that tag next month! haha I hope someone chooses me as a teaching partner! haha. hmm. right now I'm also in the process of taking exams, so people from Korea, I'm going to try my best I might be able to teach you guys some tie up materials if I do good on the exams I'm trying. so hope for me to be able to at least finish these exams ok? haha. If I do bad I'll tell you guys lol. For now I have this mood for myself:

I don't think I need to say anything more.

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This sucks. Like for reals. I was working normally a while ago. then all of a sudden this happened :( For those 4 students who suddenly got canceled I'm sorry. I know most of you guys are students I almost always talk to so I'm really sorry for that :( As much as I don't want to be I am part of the area where there is a server issue I'm really sorry. I might not even be able to teach for days. I'm sorry but I might not teach for the next few days or something. I hope you guys forgive me m(_ _)m

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I'm writing this and I'm not even sure if everyone knows but I like Arashi very much and even especially Hey Say Jump lately. I didn't even realize that this year is Hey Say Jump's 10th anniversary. I've been randomly telling students I want to go to Japan at 2019, but now I'm really considering whether or not to go by then. I see myself in this scenario by that time, I'm either here as a teacher still, or I might be in a different country teaching. I'm not sure who but I remember telling one student I want to teach in either Japan, Kazakhstan or even at Italy. So yeah. Why do I want to be at Japan on 2019? Arashi's 20th Anniversary. I dunno if I'll be able to get tickets tho? From what I heard you need to live in Japan to be able to get tickets to go there. haha. Forget Olympics, I don't think I'll be able to get some to watch something as trivial as a Japanese concert.I kinda want to say I'm learning Japanese because of something as trivial as bands. I don't want to make it too complex anymore. I mean I haven't been updated, it's only recently I knew that Hey Say Jump is getting more and more famous lately. Even their stuff is kinda expensive. I also kinda decided late to buy, the pre orders of buying their stuff is done now. haha. so nevermind. Since I'm bored I decided to show you guys the only fan girl item I have right now. At least I can use it right?

As much as I hate admitting my fears, I have one I'm scared of that I'm currently unsure of what to do about. Mostly it's because it's something I really don't want and I still have to deal with it because it might be my reality, which is why I'm afraid of it. Ok so what am I talking about? the reality that I might have to wear glasses. I don't want it. すごく大嫌いですよ。やだ。I took care of my eyes so hard just so I never have to wear glasses again. I'm saying again because I did used to have glasses as a kid. but I kinda did bad things to it so I have to remove them. so my naughtiness actually paied off and corrected my astigmatism as a kid. I don't want to wear glasses for reals :( I don't want :( so here is what I look like now because Kate was basically scaring me yesterday that it's my eyes that might be the reason for my almost constant head aches. すごく欲しくない。I hope these lessen the headaches even if I feel stupid. whatever works.

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I don't know why but I feel like I should have explained more on the PPS on the previous post. Well DMM was putting up notices that they want teachers to have the TOEFL, IELTS, and just yesterday EIKEN tags. Last week, I expressed interest and took the tests to see if I could have the tags, I sure hope I get them because I feel it would make others feel comfortable to have my classes. I mean I'm not good at business but recently I've been feeling pretty good at talking about business with those that request it. but better not jinx it, I still feel like I have a long way to go. Sometimes I feel bad and think maybe the people from the office would think of me as someone who's greedy. I'm not really. I just always remember what I used to say to myself back when I was in GnGn, to always try opportunities I see. If it works then awesome if not, it's great as well because I know the pessimistic me tried and I didn't close my door to that opportunity. I know I can't be a hypocrite and say I say yes to every opportunity, because there are some opportunities that I do want to try but end up saying no or wishing I can say yes to them later rather than now. For the ones I see where it can just add rather than really change my dynamics, I do them. More because I want to challenge myself and see if I can do it and improve myself. If I do get a tag, I hope you guys think of it as me working hard. Because I really try my best and see if I can be someone who anyone can go to if they need help. I'm not sure if I can get those tags but I can let you guys know I'm doing it with your needs in mind. I hope I see you guys soon! Inspiration for later.

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Hi. A while ago I was in an interview and it made me realize why I was unhappy with what I have now. It's not that I'm not happy teaching it's more like I'm not used to just having this job and not do anything else but this. Most of you guys probably know or if you guys like read further to last year that I worked for GnGn, when I was working there, I wasn't just a teacher, I had other jobs to keep me occupied, other tasks that make me feel happy. I didn't know it was that feeling until I had this interview earlier and somehow I feel happy she made me realize that unidentified hole in me. It makes real sense now as to why I feel really unsettled and not really happy with just teaching. I was so used to having more than one thing to do and to look forward to, like if I get tired of doing one thing I can switch to the other whenever I feel like it. so uhm yeah, you're asking what's the quote above supposed to be? Well the thing is, honestly? having 2 jobs a the same time is very taxing and I didn't realize until a while ago despite me getting sick and travelling far just for work, I enjoyed every moment of it and you guys can probably guess by now why right? There are people who made it very worth it. If I'm going to be honest I think I found someone who might also be like that. I kinda hope she doesn't look at my blog right now and I'll be embarrassed if she does. I'm gonna hope she forgets to look at my blog but I really just wanted to share and to let everybody know that it's actually very important and very comfortable if you find a boss who makes working worthwhile, I certainly didn't feel like I was working, they were there with me, and I hope maybe she can be like that too.

PS. I realize how embarrassing my blog looks like right now. I hope she still considers me, I mean look at that paint made edit I did. I stupidly need a good editor right now. I'm going to facepalm all night. lol.

PPS. I'll try to have lots of tags for teaching. I tried TOEFL, IELTS, and later I'm going to try to have/apply for the EIKEN tag. Wish me well guys! I want to teach you guys more stuff! :D

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I just realized I have been working for 10 days now, and what better way to get you guys to see what's on my side of the computer. uhm sorry I kinda did this on a whim without really thinking about it so sorry if it's very elementary. lol and I kinda haven't really edited a picture in ages so I don't have any editing platform than paint. c'mon laugh now if you want to because I'm laughing at myself. So yeah I just made this to make anyone hopefully everyone laugh. It's also a reminder for myself to do some work on my TESOL. ok yosh. I'll go now :)



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ok so first day back to work and it's looking good ;) well sorta? If you consider 10/19 booked classes a win. It definitely feels like it for me. Especially since no one knows me yet again, and I just thank my lucky stars I considered being an examiner, if not I don't think I'll be able to get much students. It was a satisfying first day, altho I did kinda messed up a bit? I kinda forgot about the recording stuff I am required by the admin to do. I'm in trouble again if someone complains about me and I don't have evidence to support me. I just hope they are all satisfied today. I mean I was. haha. e he he. still nervous about it. lol

So anyway I wanted to share another good news! I'm making good progress with TESOL! whoo. Tho I'm kinda nervous haha. mostly because I didn't really finish reading test 2 and I just answered most of the questions by what I know and I thank my lucky stars again that my basics in grammar are still good enough for me to pass the exam. So I might just leave everyone on a good note on this! I hope everyone has a good day like I am having! If you don't consider my family problems, nobody would really know because today is awesome!


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