I guess this December has been really busy. haha.
I didn't mean to but I guess a lot of ups and downs kept me busy that I haven't been able to post much here.
Almost all of my day offs were spent at the city.
Considering that I only take 1 day off a week for the past months,
I feel like I haven't had a real day off in months as well.
I don't know what to say really right now.
I guess I still have a lot to learn in my own Japanese. haha. sorry for my broken Japanese.
I guess this is my own version of year end message to everyone :) <3
I really wish everyone happiness and progress this year.
I love all of you :) <3
ーメイコ
I didn't mean to but I guess a lot of ups and downs kept me busy that I haven't been able to post much here.
Almost all of my day offs were spent at the city.
Considering that I only take 1 day off a week for the past months,
I feel like I haven't had a real day off in months as well.
I don't know what to say really right now.
明けましておめでとうございますみんなさん
今年は最高です。
みんなのために
私より良い人間になりたい。
来年も
よろしくお願いします。
毎日、私の幸せはみんなの笑顔です。
みんなのProgressは私のPrideです。
I guess I still have a lot to learn in my own Japanese. haha. sorry for my broken Japanese.
I guess this is my own version of year end message to everyone :) <3
I really wish everyone happiness and progress this year.
I love all of you :) <3
ーメイコ
It's been real busy lately. I feel sad not being able to blog too much lately.
But I guess today is as good as any other right?
I'm a bit dull and a bit sad?
I think some people might even think I'm shallow saying this.
I don't have a room.
I don't live in my own house. I'm living at my relatives house.
Why am I sad?
I don't know what to do with my poster.
hahahahaha. I'm so shallow.
but It somehow makes me sad right now.
I just wanted to share that
sometimes
something so petty can actually upset you sometimes.
ーメイコ
But I guess today is as good as any other right?
I'm a bit dull and a bit sad?
I think some people might even think I'm shallow saying this.
I don't have a room.
I don't live in my own house. I'm living at my relatives house.
Why am I sad?
I don't know what to do with my poster.
hahahahaha. I'm so shallow.
but It somehow makes me sad right now.
I just wanted to share that
sometimes
something so petty can actually upset you sometimes.
As everybody knows by now, I'm very critical of myself which I think is part of the reason I think I don't have much friends.
I'm trying not to be.
So here is my JUMPaper. (On a completely different platform from the others who made the same)
I started my day kind of late than usual. I mean I normally get up when I wake up at 6 but I kinda fell asleep again. I ended up leaving later than planned. I left at 9. Which I have to say I regret doing so because traffic was not expected. especially here in Cavite.
I was the last to come unfortunately haha. It's embarrassing. I hate being late. side note as to why. I live far away so I take it as a challenge to come earlier than everyone else. so I hate that I failed this time. at an event I don't know anyone. I'm afraid of giving the impression I'm always late because 8/10 times I am always on time or earlier. except on really bad days.
To be honest, I know the venue more than the meeting place so It was kind of a struggle really. I used to live in Mandaluyong but now I feel inadequate being there and getting lost.
At first I was thinking of staying behind because I really didn't know anyone. Just as I was about to go out and like look for something to cool down on because I kinda ran around looking for the meeting spot stupid lost Meiko someone tapped my shoulder and said hi. good work social skills, someone had to talk to you first before you make friends tsk.
I was honestly very nervous because I don't really have friends in the fandom. I don't consider myself to be a die hard fan of HSJ, I just know a lot about them because I've known them for a long time now and I'm the type to like something even without the influence of others. So almost all of the things that interest me right now are things I don't get from others and even if I do get some from others, I seem to like them on my own and I sometimes surpass those that introduce me and stuff.
I was really surprised that people in the fandom are really nice and very different from what I imagined. I kind of have stories that people that usually have parties are usually just friends with one another so I'm really happy that this thought was immediately thrown out of the window.
Like I said, I was really not expecting anything during the party, although I was expecting myself to become a part of the background while I was there. But the atmosphere was so fun I ended up getting more excited than I was thinking I would. I was lip-syncing to almost all of the songs that were playing. I feel kinda bad tho because I don't remember/listen to their old songs soo much. The songs I mostly listen to are only the ones when I started following them again until now so that means recently.
I feel very happy I said yes to Alla when she told me to go. I feel really happy and lucky I got to talk to her. but now that I think about why I message her, I forgot to ask for the hsjxkismyft2 24 hour sp. sorry I don't know their acronym I think I should go and ask her again o.o
I got to join 2 games! The first one I was bad at it, I thought I had confidence but it seems I'm not good at it. Most of the songs that were played were during the time I wasn't too active. I have trouble remembering songs from that time. And the songs that I did know I feel like I was spacing out. That game was really fast you know!
I don't see myself as an expert/otaku when it comes to HSJ, but it seems I am. I won the game for the kind of quiz. There were some questions that I honestly wasn't sure about. cough I might be the last person to ask for rumors Also It's Arioka Daisuke. We were technically correct. To be honest, Okamoto's question was one of those that I was sure about. So I kept looking at the board if I was standing at the wrong place. I wasn't really looking at the board I was only listening I'm a small person sorry. So I'm trying my best not to be guilty I finished the game a bit early. I felt like I was a party pooper. I didn't want to spoil the fun TwT Why didn't anyone join me at D? TwT
I really tried my best to make friends. So whenever I was idle I started talking to those who were near me. So by the end of the event, I think I made a fair amount of friends :)
I was planning on buying uchiwas but I didn't see any Inoo uchiwas. I was thinking of buying Chinen's but I really feel incomplete if I didn't start with Inoo, so I guess maybe next time :) Too bad the only solo posters also didn't have Inoo. I don't know why but the lady selling the goods knew I was an Inoo fan because she started showing me Inoo's shop photos before everything else, she really baited me. I spent almost 1k with the clear file I have been eying this for months and his photos and one group photo from fantastic time favorite single as of now.
I want to thank Daicoke for being there with me the whole day. I felt a bit bad because she has a sissy there and yet she sat next to me the whole day because I had no other friends. I feel very happy and lucky to have met you :)
I got lucky with the exchange gift as well. I don't have a car but I like pillows anyways. Thank you soo much Edeline. She thinks it's not good but I think it was perfect. It even goes well her Ichiban Yuya. He's the only member who has a reputation for driving.
Anyway I forgot to mention at the start of the event there was a registration. I didn't really know what it was for, I was thinking for mementos or something. I'm a scrap planner girl. Who knows if the admins are like that too? It was actually for raffles. I did not expect my lucky stars to bless me yesterday. I got a trading card and the grand prize! A smart poster! I was talking to Jihan how lucky the person who'll get it because I don't see anymore goods other than the t shirt being sold for smart goods. I ended up laughing a lot at how I really didn't expect to get it. I didn't know what else to say after that so I just ended up laughing a lot and talking to others.
I'm awkward so I don't know, I tried to make friends with the only fanboy in the event Keisuke. It's surprising he's also a long time fan now. 2011 or 2010 I think. Makes me wonder if he has other guy friends who also like HSJ, oh these were my thoughts when I was at the event.
I also made friends with Marga. I'm surprised we have the same name. I actually didn't get my goodie envelope at the end of the event because I thought they were calling her. So haha sorry to the admins because I totally didn't know if you were calling me. Other than our names we have a lot similar. Both of our top favorite members are the same, for the 2 groups that we like.
I guess I'm lucky to have this day. A bit unlucky going home, but nothing is going to faze me. I really enjoyed yesterday. This is unexpectedly a novel. aia better finish it now then. hehe. おやすみ。
ーメイコ
I'm trying not to be.
So here is my JUMPaper. (On a completely different platform from the others who made the same)
I was the last to come unfortunately haha. It's embarrassing. I hate being late. side note as to why. I live far away so I take it as a challenge to come earlier than everyone else. so I hate that I failed this time. at an event I don't know anyone. I'm afraid of giving the impression I'm always late because 8/10 times I am always on time or earlier. except on really bad days.
To be honest, I know the venue more than the meeting place so It was kind of a struggle really. I used to live in Mandaluyong but now I feel inadequate being there and getting lost.
At first I was thinking of staying behind because I really didn't know anyone. Just as I was about to go out and like look for something to cool down on because I kinda ran around looking for the meeting spot stupid lost Meiko someone tapped my shoulder and said hi. good work social skills, someone had to talk to you first before you make friends tsk.
I was honestly very nervous because I don't really have friends in the fandom. I don't consider myself to be a die hard fan of HSJ, I just know a lot about them because I've known them for a long time now and I'm the type to like something even without the influence of others. So almost all of the things that interest me right now are things I don't get from others and even if I do get some from others, I seem to like them on my own and I sometimes surpass those that introduce me and stuff.
I was really surprised that people in the fandom are really nice and very different from what I imagined. I kind of have stories that people that usually have parties are usually just friends with one another so I'm really happy that this thought was immediately thrown out of the window.
Like I said, I was really not expecting anything during the party, although I was expecting myself to become a part of the background while I was there. But the atmosphere was so fun I ended up getting more excited than I was thinking I would. I was lip-syncing to almost all of the songs that were playing. I feel kinda bad tho because I don't remember/listen to their old songs soo much. The songs I mostly listen to are only the ones when I started following them again until now so that means recently.
I feel very happy I said yes to Alla when she told me to go. I feel really happy and lucky I got to talk to her. but now that I think about why I message her, I forgot to ask for the hsjxkismyft2 24 hour sp. sorry I don't know their acronym I think I should go and ask her again o.o
I got to join 2 games! The first one I was bad at it, I thought I had confidence but it seems I'm not good at it. Most of the songs that were played were during the time I wasn't too active. I have trouble remembering songs from that time. And the songs that I did know I feel like I was spacing out. That game was really fast you know!
I don't see myself as an expert/otaku when it comes to HSJ, but it seems I am. I won the game for the kind of quiz. There were some questions that I honestly wasn't sure about. cough I might be the last person to ask for rumors Also It's Arioka Daisuke. We were technically correct. To be honest, Okamoto's question was one of those that I was sure about. So I kept looking at the board if I was standing at the wrong place. I wasn't really looking at the board I was only listening I'm a small person sorry. So I'm trying my best not to be guilty I finished the game a bit early. I felt like I was a party pooper. I didn't want to spoil the fun TwT Why didn't anyone join me at D? TwT
I really tried my best to make friends. So whenever I was idle I started talking to those who were near me. So by the end of the event, I think I made a fair amount of friends :)
I was planning on buying uchiwas but I didn't see any Inoo uchiwas. I was thinking of buying Chinen's but I really feel incomplete if I didn't start with Inoo, so I guess maybe next time :) Too bad the only solo posters also didn't have Inoo. I don't know why but the lady selling the goods knew I was an Inoo fan because she started showing me Inoo's shop photos before everything else, she really baited me. I spent almost 1k with the clear file I have been eying this for months and his photos and one group photo from fantastic time favorite single as of now.
I want to thank Daicoke for being there with me the whole day. I felt a bit bad because she has a sissy there and yet she sat next to me the whole day because I had no other friends. I feel very happy and lucky to have met you :)
I got lucky with the exchange gift as well. I don't have a car but I like pillows anyways. Thank you soo much Edeline. She thinks it's not good but I think it was perfect. It even goes well her Ichiban Yuya. He's the only member who has a reputation for driving.
Anyway I forgot to mention at the start of the event there was a registration. I didn't really know what it was for, I was thinking for mementos or something. I'm a scrap planner girl. Who knows if the admins are like that too? It was actually for raffles. I did not expect my lucky stars to bless me yesterday. I got a trading card and the grand prize! A smart poster! I was talking to Jihan how lucky the person who'll get it because I don't see anymore goods other than the t shirt being sold for smart goods. I ended up laughing a lot at how I really didn't expect to get it. I didn't know what else to say after that so I just ended up laughing a lot and talking to others.
I'm awkward so I don't know, I tried to make friends with the only fanboy in the event Keisuke. It's surprising he's also a long time fan now. 2011 or 2010 I think. Makes me wonder if he has other guy friends who also like HSJ, oh these were my thoughts when I was at the event.
I also made friends with Marga. I'm surprised we have the same name. I actually didn't get my goodie envelope at the end of the event because I thought they were calling her. So haha sorry to the admins because I totally didn't know if you were calling me. Other than our names we have a lot similar. Both of our top favorite members are the same, for the 2 groups that we like.
I guess I'm lucky to have this day. A bit unlucky going home, but nothing is going to faze me. I really enjoyed yesterday. This is unexpectedly a novel. aia better finish it now then. hehe. おやすみ。
I don't know why but I felt like sharing. I'm watching a drama
人は見た目が１００パーセント
I'm excited. I love all three actresses. and I think I'm kind of falling in love with Narita Ryo as well. I wonder how the story will go.
ーメイコ
It's been a while!
I'M WATCHING FIGURE SKATING LIVE!
I might shout haha. sorry.
I ended up doing this while the scores were being announced.
I'm happy it was just Russian and Japanese characters.
I know at least both of them. haha.
It's a good review for doing the Russian alphabet.
I guess it was only letter G that I forgot. It took me a while.
Anyways. Should I make a reaction? Just a little bit I guess is ok.
MY TINY QUEEN IS FABULOUS!
I LOVE ADORE I WORSHIP SATOKO.
SHE IS SO UGH.
I CAN'T.
I really can't see it any other way, she really is the apple of my eye when it comes to the ladies.
I really love her style and her layback and her foot work.
How can anyone not love her?
I am not going to not be biased so I don't think I should make reactions to others.
I have at least 30 minutes until the mens. I hope I don't die from watching Shoma.
I'll go down to eat a bit.
ーメイコ
I'M WATCHING FIGURE SKATING LIVE!
I might shout haha. sorry.
Edit:
I'm happy it was just Russian and Japanese characters.
I know at least both of them. haha.
It's a good review for doing the Russian alphabet.
I guess it was only letter G that I forgot. It took me a while.
Anyways. Should I make a reaction? Just a little bit I guess is ok.
MY TINY QUEEN IS FABULOUS!
I LOVE ADORE I WORSHIP SATOKO.
SHE IS SO UGH.
I CAN'T.
I really can't see it any other way, she really is the apple of my eye when it comes to the ladies.
I really love her style and her layback and her foot work.
How can anyone not love her?
I am not going to not be biased so I don't think I should make reactions to others.
I have at least 30 minutes until the mens. I hope I don't die from watching Shoma.
I'll go down to eat a bit.
ーメイコ
Today and yesterday are good days.
Just a little push more and I'll be there.
It's almost within my reach.
But it's going to be tough.
aia. I'm scared. but I need to be able to do it.
I need to do it!
Wish me luck!
ーメイコ
Just a little push more and I'll be there.
It's almost within my reach.
But it's going to be tough.
aia. I'm scared. but I need to be able to do it.
I need to do it!
Wish me luck!
I know it's bad
and I shouldn't do it
but sometimes
I really fall in love with bases
Sometimes I play music, unexpectedly loud
but I can't get mad at myself because I love the sound.
I know I hurt my ears
but music is really irresistible to me
If I hear it crisp and it matches my preference.
I end up listening to a whole song on that volume.
This is the song that made me realize it.
I hope you guys enjoy the beat.
ーメイコ
and I shouldn't do it
but sometimes
I really fall in love with bases
Sometimes I play music, unexpectedly loud
but I can't get mad at myself because I love the sound.
I know I hurt my ears
but music is really irresistible to me
If I hear it crisp and it matches my preference.
I end up listening to a whole song on that volume.
This is the song that made me realize it.
I hope you guys enjoy the beat.
YES YES YES YES YES YES YES!
OH MY GOD!
YES
FINALLY A CLEAN SKATE!
AFTER SUCH A LONG TIME
I'VE BEEN SOO WORRIED FOR HER
SINCE NHK TROPHY
I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!
I FEEL SOO TOTALLY HAPPY.
I'VE BEEN HEARING NOTHING BUT HER INJURIES LATELY
NOW I FEEL SUPER CONFIDENT
I LOVE THIS WOMAN
I FEEL SUPER HAPPY.
I need to calm down before talking about her properly.
sorry about this fan girl post haha.
I'll post hopefully later properly.
See you!
ーメイコ
I didn't mean to but I'm super busy lately
I mean I didn't do it on purpose.
Sorry.
It even took me until now to watch this.
There was something wrong even yesterday that I couldn't post
So sorry.
I love you guys.
I love Satoko too.
I wish she does well on the Free! <3
ーメイコ
not sure if I told mot of you,
I like watching basketball.
after doing the lesson notes today and eating,
I saw the guys here watching this.
The game is so interesting!
The scores are so tight!
Amazing both Japan and Philippines!
I wonder what Japanese people usually chant when basketball games happen.
When it isn't the national team playing.
Things like defence and stuff.
Do I have a student who's a basketball fan here?
Mind teaching me about it?
∑(⌒◇⌒；)
See you guys tomorrow!
ーメイコ
I'm currently doing my TESOL exams.
I feel like I need to finish these quickly.
I don't know maybe a Christmas gift for myself?
I haven't been working on it.
I'm just all work and all play.
No studying.
やばいこれ
Well thankfully, I finished 3.
I'm a bit so so on this.
I think I'm not really doing my best.
I understand the material easily so I'm not doing much effort.
This is one thing I really don't like about myself.
ーメイコ
I feel like I need to finish these quickly.
I don't know maybe a Christmas gift for myself?
I haven't been working on it.
I'm just all work and all play.
No studying.
やばいこれ
Well thankfully, I finished 3.
I'm a bit so so on this.
I think I'm not really doing my best.
I understand the material easily so I'm not doing much effort.
This is one thing I really don't like about myself.
ーメイコ
Just some words I wish to learn
I don't know about others
but I've had some students discouraging me to learn Kanji.
Just to let you guys know,
that actually motivates me more.
Don't ever think it's not worthy to be learned.
Your language is beautiful.
Personally?
I wish I learned even earlier.
ーメイコ
I don't know about others
but I've had some students discouraging me to learn Kanji.
Just to let you guys know,
that actually motivates me more.
Don't ever think it's not worthy to be learned.
Your language is beautiful.
Personally?
I wish I learned even earlier.
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| I only started using memrise again. I need to start over I think? |
ーメイコ
Something just dawned on me this morning.
Dreams are kind of like hypnotism.
Like even though you know some things are not true
or
impossible to happen in real life
and it happens in your dream,
you still feel like it's real.
It was like a nightmare
now that I think about it.
Suddenly being informed I'd be going to Italy in a few days,
on the day I even planned to go out with a friend of mine even.
It seemed horrible to me. haha.
I kinda hate myself for falling for it.
I woke up not knowing what to do.
Like I thought I was really leaving next week.
ありえないです
絶対ムリ
I was really worried until it dawned on me it was just a dream
A nightmare
haha.
私もダメです
笑
ーメイコ
Dreams are kind of like hypnotism.
Like even though you know some things are not true
or
impossible to happen in real life
and it happens in your dream,
you still feel like it's real.
It was like a nightmare
now that I think about it.
Suddenly being informed I'd be going to Italy in a few days,
on the day I even planned to go out with a friend of mine even.
It seemed horrible to me. haha.
I kinda hate myself for falling for it.
I woke up not knowing what to do.
Like I thought I was really leaving next week.
ありえないです
絶対ムリ
I was really worried until it dawned on me it was just a dream
A nightmare
haha.
私もダメです
笑
ーメイコ
あの。I forgot to mention yesterday.
I finally got the gift I gave myself last month!
嬉しいです。٩(♡ε♡ )۶
超嬉しい ˭̡̞(◞⁎˃ᆺ˂)◞*♡
I don't know what else to say but happy ♡
I even got a bonus flyer of 鋼の錬金術師。
幸せです (ﾉ´ヮ´)ﾉ*:･ﾟ♡
ーメイコ
I finally got the gift I gave myself last month!
嬉しいです。٩(♡ε♡ )۶
超嬉しい ˭̡̞(◞⁎˃ᆺ˂)◞*♡
I even got a bonus flyer of 鋼の錬金術師。
幸せです (ﾉ´ヮ´)ﾉ*:･ﾟ♡
ーメイコ
I'm not fine lately.
I've been thinking about not lying to my students about it.
But somehow I think students might think my health is something trivial they don't want to know about.
I always end up saying I'm fine.
Last night I ended up sleeping for only 3/4 hours.
I don't know what to do with myself.
I hope I can be truly fine. I kinda hate saying I am even though I'm not.
I'm gonna try to sleep early now. Good night
ーメイコ
I've been thinking about not lying to my students about it.
But somehow I think students might think my health is something trivial they don't want to know about.
I always end up saying I'm fine.
Last night I ended up sleeping for only 3/4 hours.
I don't know what to do with myself.
I hope I can be truly fine. I kinda hate saying I am even though I'm not.
I'm gonna try to sleep early now. Good night
I can't help myself but be a kid.
I don't know why but I've been reading lovely complex for 2 nights already
and I squeal like a little girl!
ugh I can't help it.
I think I'll always love this manga.
I haven't even read all of it (I started at the end)
yet I find myself squealing at the same moments I did 10 years ago.
haha I guess at least some things never change.
ーメイコ
I don't know why but I've been reading lovely complex for 2 nights already
and I squeal like a little girl!
ugh I can't help it.
I think I'll always love this manga.
I haven't even read all of it (I started at the end)
yet I find myself squealing at the same moments I did 10 years ago.
haha I guess at least some things never change.
I feel like I've been listing my achievements at work
Well. They are all I have lately
So I don't think I can really properly talk about anything but work.
aia. This might be all for today.
too tired
and
I did something wrong with my body.
I better rest now.
おやすみ
ー
I forgot to post yesterday.
I don't like the fact that lately I've been depending on coffee a bit.
I'm a bit acidic. I have gastric problems and stuff and knowing I drink coffee a lot.
It makes me a bit nervous for my health.
ーメイコ
I don't like the fact that lately I've been depending on coffee a bit.
I'm a bit acidic. I have gastric problems and stuff and knowing I drink coffee a lot.
It makes me a bit nervous for my health.
ーメイコ
Today was totally unexpected.
It's totally tiring
but totally fun.
It's my first time to play bowling today o(≧∇≦o)
It was totally not planned but everything fell to place
₍₍ ◝(●˙꒳˙●)◜ ₎₎
I totally sucked at it tho.
(੭ ˃̣̣̥ ㅂ˂̣̣̥)੭ु
I can't believe myself ٩(๑꒦ິȏ꒦ິ๑)۶
I was totally teaching my friend the rules but he ended up being better at it than me.
٩(இ ⌓ இ๑)۶
Now here I am 2 games with salonpas on my wrist. haha.
I feel so mad at my wrist haha at least win if you're gonna hurt like this
꒰๑•̥﹏•̥๑꒱
I tried my best haha. Hopefully next time I win! ۹(ÒہÓ)۶
Obviously, I got the ones above haha. I really couldn't believe it. he made 5 strikes!
引退します。笑
ーメイコ
It's totally tiring
but totally fun.
It's my first time to play bowling today o(≧∇≦o)
It was totally not planned but everything fell to place
₍₍ ◝(●˙꒳˙●)◜ ₎₎
I totally sucked at it tho.
(੭ ˃̣̣̥ ㅂ˂̣̣̥)੭ु
I can't believe myself ٩(๑꒦ິȏ꒦ິ๑)۶
I was totally teaching my friend the rules but he ended up being better at it than me.
٩(இ ⌓ இ๑)۶
Now here I am 2 games with salonpas on my wrist. haha.
I feel so mad at my wrist haha at least win if you're gonna hurt like this
꒰๑•̥﹏•̥๑꒱
I tried my best haha. Hopefully next time I win! ۹(ÒہÓ)۶
1st Game
2nd Game
Obviously, I got the ones above haha. I really couldn't believe it. he made 5 strikes!
引退します。笑
ーメイコ
OH MY GOD!
I CAN'T BELIEVE IT
本当？ありえない
I just watched episode 9 of Code Blue Season 3
全然ありえないよ！
I want to watch Episode 10 already!
( ≧Д≦)( ≧Д≦)( ≧Д≦)
I can't watch it yet tho!
There are no subs on it yet! I can't understand the drama by itself because of the medical terms
(;｀O´)o(;｀O´)o(;｀O´)o
I feel like crying! I hope someone finishes the sub soon
щ(ಥДಥщ)
When will it come?
ふう〜
Calm down Meiko. It'll come. Calm down.
See. They're calm. Calm down.
I feel like crying haha.
ーメイコ
(the gif was from a different episode.)
I CAN'T BELIEVE IT
本当？ありえない
I just watched episode 9 of Code Blue Season 3
全然ありえないよ！
I want to watch Episode 10 already!
( ≧Д≦)( ≧Д≦)( ≧Д≦)
I can't watch it yet tho!
There are no subs on it yet! I can't understand the drama by itself because of the medical terms
(;｀O´)o(;｀O´)o(;｀O´)o
I feel like crying! I hope someone finishes the sub soon
щ(ಥДಥщ)
When will it come?
ふう〜
Calm down Meiko. It'll come. Calm down.
See. They're calm. Calm down.
I feel like crying haha.
ーメイコ
(the gif was from a different episode.)
I just realized something a few days ago.
Japanese people make blogs a bit like this.
I don't know? To make it easier to read? (´−｀) ﾝｰ
I've been thinking about it? Maybe I should write like this?~ 〈(゜。゜)
If I do I think it would mostly consist of very long blog posts full of weird texts.
I have no way of knowing if this is better. (۶ꈨຶꎁꈨຶ )۶
Is there anyone out there that can react if this is a good idea? I'm a big worrywart!
This might be it for this post now (⌒◇⌒；)
For now, here's a picture of me in Manila last month.
じゃね
ーメイコ
Japanese people make blogs a bit like this.
I don't know? To make it easier to read? (´−｀) ﾝｰ
I've been thinking about it? Maybe I should write like this?~ 〈(゜。゜)
If I do I think it would mostly consist of very long blog posts full of weird texts.
I have no way of knowing if this is better. (۶ꈨຶꎁꈨຶ )۶
Is there anyone out there that can react if this is a good idea? I'm a big worrywart!
This might be it for this post now (⌒◇⌒；)
For now, here's a picture of me in Manila last month.
じゃね
ーメイコ
I don't know why but I felt like sharing a video again. I don't really know what to talk about today because I'm a little bit under the weather and I didn't really know what to do with myself today. I was really pushing myself to be 元気 a while ago. I really wanted to make everyone feel good today so I tried my best to be happy. Today is not in vain tho I got good comments that made me happy as well. I guess another push for me to always move forward. Thank you everyone. From the bottom of my heart
ーメイコ
I don't think I can wait this for tomorrow. This is so fantastic ugh.
This is their first performance this season and yet it feels like it's the 2nd half of the season already! This is so amazing I'm so in love! I kind of forgot that Satoko was for next week. I thought she's gonna perform this week but then again I can always wait for next week. but now I get to see this glorious performance. I love it. I have no regrets. <3
Aia I also love Elena's performance this time! Aia! she deserves this. I'm a bit nervous for team Japan tho. Not sure if a lot of Japanese ladies will get to the GPF! Aia! I'm so nervous! I have a lot of skaters I like and want to win! I'm not even sure who to root for anymore! haha I'm so nervous! I'm not watching the Grand Prix series live so I'm scared I'm not sure what the scores are lately and the standings. haha I'm too nervous to think about it! Aia I'm still not gonna talk technical stuff and such. I'm thinking about doing it before and after the GPF. I'll talk about techniques and stuff that I find amazing. basically me nit picking. haha. I'll go and watch some others and come back tomorrow or something. I promised myself to watch Kamiki later. haha
ーメイコ
Right now I wish I know how to play or at least know the rules to shogi. I'm currently watching 3月のライオン 前編 I felt like watching Kamiki Ryunosuke after a long time! I really missed watching him so here I am now watching it. I still haven't watched the 2nd movie yet. I think I might watch it tomorrow instead. Uwaaaa! I feel like binge watching Kamiki movies! I forgot how much I love him actually. I guess talking about him a while ago in made me want to watch again. So here I am now wanting to watch almost a list of movies he acted in. I feel inadequate right now and want to watch more! I feel like I'm not a real fan right now. I even thought I watched that one with the Daruma san but then I realized I didn't! I guess I was excited for other manga adaptations. I really love manga adaptations even tho, like this one, I haven't read a lot of manga myself. Well I do feel like most of the time, the movies are works of their own. I don't think movies are supposed to follow everything from the manga. I think it's good they have their own path too. This might be it for me. Good night :)
ーメイコ
PS. I still haven't finished my review for pink to grey. aia. I think I might be in trouble here.
PS. I still haven't finished my review for pink to grey. aia. I think I might be in trouble here.
Somehow I want to say something about myself. I don't think I'll find somekind of love life for the next few years or so. There are people who are courting me and stuff. But I don't think they'll really be able to break my sell or something. I've been thinking about it and somehow I've been showing my bad sides lately to people. I don't want to be viewed as someone who is always nice anymore. I have to be honest and people have been abusing me and been using me because I seldom say no or I always empathise with others and help them out. I've gotten the feeling that when I'm nice people leave me after they are done getting what they want. I can't help but remember some people and I feel like I need to protect myself. I don't think what I'm doing is nice but I don't know who are there for me because of me anymore. I think it would be nice if people spend time with me despite pushing them away. But I guess if people can't take it, I guess I'm better off alone.
ーメイコ
Today isn't a really good day. There's a bit of a family issue so just when I decided to do some studying I can't actually focus because I'm conscious of the people around me. I just feel sad and frustrated right now. sorry if I can't post something positive today. I hope everyone else is having a good day tho. I hope everyone else has a good day. See you guys :)
ーメイコ
ーメイコ
I feel like nothing more can be said than amazing. I feel happy I could watch this. I feel a bit sad tho because I can't watch it live because of work but really, I feel happy. I love Antonio Vivaldi. I love four seasons. And I love this guy. haha. I love that after his triple axel he directly made a spread eagle. It's really cool! I want to say something more cool but I don't know yet right now. I want to watch it more. I'm still waiting for the free skate tomorrow yet I'm already waiting for Internationaux de France where he will perform this again. I'm hoping he will be at the Grand Prix Finals. I can't imagine him and Yuzuru not being there together. aia. I'm so used to their little ritual at the Grand Prix Final podium already. oh please oh please. Anyways. this might be all for now. I'm afraid I'll talk about his program too much if I think about it. See you later!
ーメイコ
Today I don't know what to say today so today might just be a filler. I'm a bit under the weather today so I'm even going to post. I'll just post something I listened to a while ago. I'm thinking of posting lots of things a while ago but right now I'm a bit blank. I don't know what to say and feel right now so I'll just post this ok? I didn't understand the speech itself mostly but I kind of understand mostly what they were saying. I'm not even sure anymore. I'm tired. Good night
ーメイコ
I had a lot of open classes today, but I think that's ok because today I finished 16 grammar topics by myself this morning. And more on the way because I'm studying again. I also was able to watch some ItaJan when it was a bit too much for me. Last night I had 27 grammar points as well. Well most of what I'm reading are things I know of or concepts I already know of and just understanding now what they really mean. So I hope nobody gets mad at me for doing it too fast or something. I honestly understand most of them. I also plan on making a proper notebook as well to make sure everything I watched/listened to are correct. I am still far from confident in my speaking ability so I want to build a foundation. It just so happen most of what I'm reading and watching are concepts that are familiar already. I hope everything works out ok in the end. Well that might be all for now. I want to go back to my grammar lessons! See you!
ーメイコ
ーメイコ
I ended up doing grammar lessons for today. There are some concepts that I know already but I guess learning everything properly is better I guess? I mean I understand mostly from what I listen to or observe. So I guess listening to a proper teacher about grammar gives perspective and sense to things properly. I should have really done things like this way before. I wasted a lot of learning time I guess. Well I can't help it. People have different conditions and mistakes. I better make it right now. I'll try to finish the first 50 lessons I guess? I mean most of them I know and just want to make sure of? who knows? Or I guess 30/40 mini lessons would be ok? I started at lesson 20 anyways. Sorry. I was planning on talking about what I did yesterday. Maybe I'll post it tomorrow but set the date to yesterday ok? I feel like if someone looks at my notes they wouldn't understand it, even a Japanese person wouldn't understand. haha. I'm really sorry an object that only Meiko understand is this (笑)
ーメイコ
ーメイコ
I'm crying. I'm dying. hahahaha. I can't live on. hahahaha. as much as I want to post something. I don't think I'll be able to really put anything that is valuable because my mind is full of Peach girl. I've been waiting for this for months I guess. I can't believe it. I'm here now. I watched it, and honestly, I don't understand all of the conversations but I got the gist of most of it. Ugh! I can't believe it! I waited soo long for this. And I have to download it again because the ending got cut. haha. I can't believe it. The most important part wasn't shown completely. hahahaha This is the worst. 今テンションMAXだ（笑）すみません I don't know what else to do. haha I might make a review of it on the other blog I have. This might be all for now. I'm too happy right now.
ーメイコ
I wanted to share something I have been doing lately. I'm not sure how much I've stressed this but for me It's painfully obvious how much I've been saying I'm into Hey Say Jump lately right? I've been listening to their radio shows on YouTube for a few days already. That and 嵐の二宮和也の Bay Storm. There are no English translations, so I am semi forced to know what words are for what they really are. I try to get the sense of the conversations and I feel like I've been kinda getting better at it. I don't know maybe my vocabulary is getting better? I hope so. I'm going to do grammar lessons later tonight, but now I feel like challenging myself to listen/read radio shows. I don't know maybe this actually lets me focus better on the language rather than TV Shows like I used to. I'm more focused on the shows themselves rather than what they are saying, so I guess this is better? I don't also depend on English texts but Japanese texts, so maybe my kanji reading would also improve? I know I've been telling other students about it but I still want to share. For me learning Kanji is really essential and something important when learning Japanese. These radio shows are helping me so I recommend trying them for my friends who want to learn Japanese! :D Also a student of mine recommended to have bilingual news! I recommend this too but unlike the radio shows on YouTube, you can't see any texts. So you might tend to listen to it a lot more than you would. hmmm I think I might need to explain this a bit?
When I listen to radio shows on YouTube, as much as possible a try to read and listen at the same time, but sometimes there are texts that I feel like I can read, so before the member who gets to say the script I pause it first and try to read myself. I kind of reward myself if I hear them say the same thing as my guess. I also can write down exactly what they say and don't have to worry too much about getting the kanji wrong because it's right in front of me and I can somehow do furigana if I'm not familiar with the kanji I just wrote. For grammar? I'm actually trying to learn how to express, want, wish, need, command, requests etc recently so it also kind of give me clues on how to express those. I feel like I'm lucky if I can spot them. Or more like I make myself try to notice them. I really wish I can hold my own when trying to have conversations in Japanese. すごく2019年に日本に行きたい。I hope by then I can have normal conversations. Next year really! I will aim for JLPT! ೕ(`･୰･´) がんばります
ーメイコ
ーメイコ
I'm seriously missing days now TwT I feel sad I couldn't do the everyday challenge kind of blog again. もう Next month! Really really! I wonder if I should even try to have like Christmas themed posts? I realized I don't have a lot of Halloween themed posts this month. I just wanted to share that that isn't really a big part of the culture in the Philippines. I realize I should have made a culture tag long ago. tsk tsk. I mean there are other things that I posted a long time that have something to do with culture. It didn't come to mind to make one. I don't think I'll be too enthusiastic to go back to old posts tho? I dunno. Well the most halloween themed I can get is another picture from last Tuesday. haha that might be all you can get from me. well for now. I better go and study something じゃね
ーメイコ
I don't know why, but I've been easy to vomit recently :( I don't want anyone to worry, but It's been happening a lot. Yesterday and today, I've been vomiting for a few. And a few weeks ago as well. I don't know. transparency's sake. I also tend to vomit when I'm happy more than when I'm upset. I'm a weird person. I don't know what to say for now. I'll leave it to this maybe. sorry for not being too informative for today and yesterday. I think I need to do some changes to myself.
There are soo many things that I did today that I'm not even sure what picture to show you guys! well. I'll leave you guys at least one.
I have a lot of things I can tell you guys but right now I'm tired. so maybe tomorrow? すごく嬉しいです。I hope everyone had a good day as well! :D 休みは終わりです
ーメイコ
ーメイコ
I missed a day again o.o Well yesterday I had a guest. My half sister was here :) She went with her son here yesterday so we had a lot of fun yesterday. At first it was mostly her telling stories but then we decided to go to the mall. At first I was thinking her son might be bored so we decided to bring him to the arcade for a bit and it ended with me and my sister playing the games. haha. We enjoyed very much. I don't have pictures tho because I didn't have my phone. I was also lucky yesterday I got a chance to buy matcha Kitkat so everything is good now. I hope the week is good to me! :D I might blog again later :)
ーメイコ
ーメイコ
Since I missed yesterday and I am kind of bored I was thinking maybe I should make like 2 posts? It's ok right? As much as I hate to admit it I'm turning into an adult who wants to do little girl activities she was never able to do as a kid. Can I be honest? I feel like there were lots of things I wasn't able to do as a kid. I wanted to play certain video games but I didn't have the CDs. I wanted certain toys but my mom never really buys toys for me. It was like a once in a year thing that I have to decide on when I'm on the mall or something. There are places I wanted to go to but I don't think my mom really like travelling too much like how I was always yearning for it since I was young. So I feel like recently I've been gifting myself all of the things I want for myself. Like my headphones, clothes, and all the random trinkets I have. Recently, I've been wanting to buy myself concert goods. I really want to buy some for myself. I feel sad I can't buy the newest concert goods from HSJ concert. I only had money after those pre selling of goods. I feel sad I don't think I'll be able to get the latest good. I wonder what to do? I'll try buying old goods or something. or maybe I'll go buy from the Arashi concert. This time I'll really be able to buy something. I'm not sure tho? I bought the Are You Happy Diary last year because it was functional. I'm not sure but I really want pen lights recently. I wonder if I should buy? I think they're not really functional but I still want them. Maybe because I've been watching so many concert videos lately that I feel like I might be in the concert itself if I watch it with a penlight. I feel childish but I feel really strongly about this. Aia. I feel like I'm going to work a lot just so I can start collecting pen lights. I don't think I'll collect posters too much? Maybe just one or 2 would be good for me o.o I don't know I'll think about it. For now, I'll go and enjoy what I can. じゃ。
ーメイコ
悔しいけど I missed a day. (；￣Д￣）I really wanted to complete October with at least one blog post a day. What happened last night? I started watching Code Blue 3. haha. I'm posting this now because I think I might watch again later. hahaha. I was enjoying it so much I slept really late last night. I don't even know how I am keeping myself awake right now. I am a coffee hater but I might just bring myself to drink some later. Who knows? aia. I hope I don't get sleepy after eating lunch. I'm just about to eat. Anyways I'm excited to watch Code Blue again later. I was very happy. Well I've been planning to watch it for a while now and a student of mine mentioned it, so I guess I took it as a sign to really watch it. I don't regret it! haha I just have a hard time watching really. So many medical terms and I have to pause a lot to understand mostly what is happening. I'm amazed that student of mine could follow. haha. it was hard. I'll watch it again later! For now I will eat lunch! haha! See you again tomorrow! :D
ーメイコ
Добрый вечер. I told a lot of you guys I'm learning Russian but I don't think I can do more than greet people and make cats to stuff. As much as I hate cats, the first thing most apps teach me is the animal I hate most so I have no choice but make sentences using cats in Russian. haha. I dunno why I felt like sharing right now. I'm sad and I don't want to make anyone else sad so I'll just share something random like this. Oh how did I learn Russian? Mostly from apps. and I have a friend from Kazakhstan. I don't get to talk to him as much as I talk with you guys tho. Most of the time we just greet each other. I don't know how much English he knows really. He doesn't like to tell stories and I don't know if he would understand my stories if I give him some. He's very nice tho. Oh I also have a friend from Azerbaijan but I don't know he doesn't talk to me anymore. He told me he likes me but I think that's just a joke.
I think the reason I can't really immerse myself in Russian is because I don't have a musician other than Чайковски that I listen to or follow. Don't get me wrong I listen to Tchaikovsky ritually. I'm not even sure what their pop music is like. I have been watching a lot of videos about Russia lately tho. I'm watching like those facts and stuff about Russia. I'm not sure I can have my own opinion when faced in a debate but I at least feel better that my opinion of Russia is not clouded by American filter anymore. I'm going to keep this blog short. I still need to work for freelance stuff. Byie
ーメイコ
ーメイコ
I have to be honest. There are lots of days where I have lots of good classes. But in all honesty, not every class is good. Sometimes I feel even really bad about the classes. I feel really bad saying this but sometimes out of 16 classes, I have very good classes for 15 classes and I get this one class that is very unsatisfactory for me, I feel sad and unsettled at night despite having almost a very good day for most of the day. as much as I hate saying this, it really gets me down. I'm unsure whether it's my own fault that I'm unsatisfied or if it's the student's unsatisfied voices that gets me down? It really matters to me when my students are happy and are smiling. Maybe this might even have something to do with the post I had a few days ago where I'm not sure if kids like me when I teach. Kids are very honest and show their honest opinion when they are happy or not during class. I get really worried sometimes whenever I have classes with kids that aren't really very into classes. I know that studying is めんどくさい which is why I try my best to be a bit of silly during class. It makes me worried if kids are having classes with me and are still serious after I do a lot of silliness in class. Well. 不安です。でも大丈夫です。頑張りたいと思います。I'm not even sure if my Japanese is good again.
ーメイコ
ーメイコ
ーメイコ
I feel a bit unsettled and unsatisfied today. I'm not happy with today's performance. I'm a little too critical to myself? I'm not sure. For me it's not a good day. I'm happy to meet people who are very close to me today. I know it's the last day for the holiday and they chose to spend their time to me which makes me really happy. It's just I don't know why but I feel not I'm not being liked or something.
I want to share something. I was talking with a friend of mine and she kind of just switched some gears in my head and I can't help but sharing it here as well. People always say that in order to be happy, you need to stop listening or caring about what other people think about you and live your life like you want it to be. Uhm correct me if I'm wrong but I think this is a bit of a western ideology. She was asking me what I thought about her and our friend's image. Like what image do they give off. I told her that for me there is no malice in whatever they do. They're together as friends and I see nothing more than that. Why do I see them that way? because she told me her feelings about him and I know that is the truth. I would see them as what she says. I know how they look like and I know what kind of vibe they have as friends. Other people misinterpret that but I don't because she told me. I told her that what really matters is what she thinks. OK let me pause at this part.
This, in all honesty, is one of the hardest thing a Filipino person can truly achieve. She even confirmed what I thought by saying It's hard. I, in all honesty, agree with her because I need this advice myself. Without really thinking about it, I told her that there is nothing wrong in saying and thinking that it's hard. It's part of our culture. I told her that our friend isn't really like us because he grew up in South Africa then moved to Russia. He grew up in a place, that unlike us, aren't controlled. I'm not sure if anyone is taking this the wrong way. How do I say controlled? At a young age, our parents and environment tell us to be conscious of our surroundings. I'm not saying that in a positive way. It's our parents who are the ones who made us conscious of how others see us. We're too concerned of what they think that we started even thinking about how other people see us as well. If anyone wants to confront me about this please do so but I really believe that not everything our parents do, even if they think it's for the best, is not for our sake. They might even be doing it unconsciously but it's still their actions. I want to explain myself more but I think I've had enough of this topic for a little bit. I'll try to be ok tomorrow. It's a day off anyways. See you guys later.
ーメイコ
I want to share something. I was talking with a friend of mine and she kind of just switched some gears in my head and I can't help but sharing it here as well. People always say that in order to be happy, you need to stop listening or caring about what other people think about you and live your life like you want it to be. Uhm correct me if I'm wrong but I think this is a bit of a western ideology. She was asking me what I thought about her and our friend's image. Like what image do they give off. I told her that for me there is no malice in whatever they do. They're together as friends and I see nothing more than that. Why do I see them that way? because she told me her feelings about him and I know that is the truth. I would see them as what she says. I know how they look like and I know what kind of vibe they have as friends. Other people misinterpret that but I don't because she told me. I told her that what really matters is what she thinks. OK let me pause at this part.
ーメイコ
If there is something I am super thankful right now for having a job, it's the fact I wake up early without any aid. I don't know it's really automatic. My body even if I sleep in slightly different hours, it automatically wakes me up at about 5 am and another at 6. If I sleep a bit earlier, I might always wake up with no need to extend at 5 am. I am kinda aiming to sleep a bit earlier. If that happens and I can wake up very early with no sleepiness whatsoever. I am planning to try and jog for reals. I hope like 9pm? I'm hoping. I mean everyday at 10pm I'm already kinda tearing already from sleepiness. I think what I need is also to be physically tired. Who knows? Maybe it may make me super healthy? I mean jogging in the morning then yoga at night? I hope that works. I'm not sure when I should properly have a bath tho? haha that might be a bit confusing? I'm thinking whether before working in the morning or after having yoga at night? It's making me undecided. haha. Well for now I conveyed a kind of thankful feeling towards everybody. I don't know right now all I have is teaching. It keeps me grounded. So thank you. :) Just a picture of me waking up a few days ago.
ーメイコ
今日。。。ちょっと難しいです。I did not expect to teach almost all day to kids. I really wonder how much of them liked me o.o I'm scared I'll just be hated or something o.o I also got a little something a while ago. I didn't expect it too much anymore because I've been failing a lot recently. lol. but let me share anyways.
I'm not sure but maybe because I have bad comments. That's why I don't have too many students there. So they suggested I teach materials especially for them. I don't know what to expect yet. For now. I'll just say good night happy I've had クロッケ that I haven't eaten in a while. I'm happy. and I'm a little bit really tired. I kept watching いただきハイジャンプ after working and now I didn't realize I'm about to sleep already. I must be really tired. haha. I'll say good night now. :) おやすみ
ーメイコ
ーメイコ
Today, I've been on a bit of a roller coaster. I feel happy that it is the first time in a while that I have full classes on a weekday. I feel happy because I have a lot of kids in my class today. But I think I'm starting to doubt whether kids like me or not. I'm not sure? Not all of the kids were smiling. I know I like to say ニコニコ知ってね whenever I talk to them. They don't smile too much tho? :( I wonder if how I teach is not too good for them. :( どうしようかな？I guess I need to think about it more tonight. I have lots of kids to talk to tomorrow it seems. Well I have to say today, almost everyone I talked to is new. Except one person. I wanted to share a bit what we talked about today because I became really excited and I did not expect it. So what was so special about our talk a while ago? I did not expect him to talk about an animal that is local in South America to be located in Japan. What am I talking about?
These adorable creatures called alpacas! I want to go to Japan like right now just so I can finally be able to see these cute creatures. I really thought they could only be found in South America. So that's why lots of Japanese shows and varieties show alpacas! I didn't know there were some in Japan! That's so cooooool! I've known about alpacas when I was in high school, I think. A friend of mine showed me pictures of alpacas and how fluffy they were. I even found a blog dedicated to alpacas, which is why I've always kinda wanted to see one in real life for a long time. It seems I don't need to go to South America anymore to see one! I can't wait for the time I go to Japan now! haha I feel like a kid wanting to go to the zoo. haha forgive me. I'm too excited. I have to be honest about something. I feel bad I haven't been doing my school work lately. I promise to do them next week! I promise to finish the last exam for work today. After that I don't know if I'll take exams there anymore. Next week, I promise to finish at least 4 exams on my certificate. I need to make it to the halfway mark! Ok I have a goal. I have to promise myself to do it! I hope everyone supports me! :D For now, I am going to work on my freelancing work. I hope to finish them tonight so I can focus on teaching tomorrow. See you guys tomorrow! :)
ーメイコ
ーメイコ
Today, I kinda am still sick but a different reason. I'm sick because I have stomach cramps today. So yeah. Here is what I was I got myself yesterday
Yey! I feel like I'm rewarding myself of some sort. haha. sorry if this is what I keep posting about for the last few days. But really! I feel happy and lucky to have met everyone for the last few days :) I met a lot of new people the last few days and I just really want to express my gratitude because you all gave me your time :) I hope I can share more and more to a lot of you! I also didn't see until now that I just got 4.9 stars! wow! Thank you very much! 😘 Also I might sleep already. I suddenly got a lot of work from my freelancing job. and everyone knows cramps and 2 jobs don't work too well right? So I hope everyone has a good night because it might be a real comfy night tonight! it's raining 😍 Good night 😉 ❤️
ーメイコ
ーメイコ
じつはきょうはちょっとたいへんだった。But I worked hard so I'll have another tag tomorrow :") I'm excited. hmmm. Nothing really special happened today. Oh I had a lot of new students today I was really happy talking to! if ever anyone of you read this I just want to say that today was really fun! I hope I was able to make everyone smile today :) Thank you very much for patronizing me. hmmm I don't have anything to share anymore really. So here's a picture of my table top looks like. It's kinda messy. but that might be all for tonight. I might go to sleep now! Good night :) <3
ーメイコ
It's my day off today! :D I wanted to share these pictures of my day today! :D Just a few snippets. I guess today is a good day. :)
A bit of a slow and sad day for me today. But something good did happen. I wasn't informed and it just suddenly popped up while I wasn't looking
It's funny because I was waiting for another tag. which I shared with you guys is Eiken, they told me a few days ago that I could be able to teach Eiken after I get the tag but I got this one earlier! haha. Who knows maybe on Wednesday there might be students who want to have TOEFL materials with me? haha. Well that might be the only positive thing I'll say for now. haha. I'm kind of in a low state right now. I even watched the season finale of Rick and Morty and I'm disappointed. Well, we can't all be happy right? See you!
ーメイコ
ーメイコ
I realize how agreeable I really am. I was just having a discussion a while ago and here I am listening to what they like. haha. I don't know. I'm a little too low and I guess I have no love right now but love for my students. Thank you for cheering me up. Sorry if I can't share what I need cheering up from but thank you.
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偶然に it's also been 1 month since I came back to DMM haha. so I dunno I just felt like posting again. haha. I'm hoping for a better month ahead :) Oh yeah for anyone who'll take the EIKEN Test, I'll be a teacher with that tag next month! haha I hope someone chooses me as a teaching partner! haha. hmm. right now I'm also in the process of taking exams, so people from Korea, I'm going to try my best I might be able to teach you guys some tie up materials if I do good on the exams I'm trying. so hope for me to be able to at least finish these exams ok? haha. If I do bad I'll tell you guys lol. For now I have this mood for myself:
Hmmm. Why am I posting? I was talking to a good friend of mine and I just suddenly felt like posting. I don't know why. She gave me the mood to make maybe? And maybe because I need to talk first before I can finally be able to focus on my exams. Ja. I hope everyone has a good day. See you guys next month! (in a few hours. haha)
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This sucks. Like for reals. I was working normally a while ago. then all of a sudden this happened :( For those 4 students who suddenly got canceled I'm sorry. I know most of you guys are students I almost always talk to so I'm really sorry for that :( As much as I don't want to be I am part of the area where there is a server issue I'm really sorry. I might not even be able to teach for days. I'm sorry but I might not teach for the next few days or something. I hope you guys forgive me m(_ _)m
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I'm writing this and I'm not even sure if everyone knows but I like Arashi very much and even especially Hey Say Jump lately. I didn't even realize that this year is Hey Say Jump's 10th anniversary. I've been randomly telling students I want to go to Japan at 2019, but now I'm really considering whether or not to go by then. I see myself in this scenario by that time, I'm either here as a teacher still, or I might be in a different country teaching. I'm not sure who but I remember telling one student I want to teach in either Japan, Kazakhstan or even at Italy. So yeah. Why do I want to be at Japan on 2019? Arashi's 20th Anniversary. I dunno if I'll be able to get tickets tho? From what I heard you need to live in Japan to be able to get tickets to go there. haha. Forget Olympics, I don't think I'll be able to get some to watch something as trivial as a Japanese concert.I kinda want to say I'm learning Japanese because of something as trivial as bands. I don't want to make it too complex anymore. I mean I haven't been updated, it's only recently I knew that Hey Say Jump is getting more and more famous lately. Even their stuff is kinda expensive. I also kinda decided late to buy, the pre orders of buying their stuff is done now. haha. so nevermind. Since I'm bored I decided to show you guys the only fan girl item I have right now. At least I can use it right?
PS: It seems I can't take the JLPT exam this December, I didn't know the registration is only until August 29. haha If I've know I would have submitted but it seems it's not meant to be yet. I'll try next year :) By then I'll be really ready. Maybe this is even the world's way of telling me to focus on TESOL. I dunno? Hopefully not. I miss learning Japanese with my friends. I'll go bother them now. See you! :D
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As much as I hate admitting my fears, I have one I'm scared of that I'm currently unsure of what to do about. Mostly it's because it's something I really don't want and I still have to deal with it because it might be my reality, which is why I'm afraid of it. Ok so what am I talking about? the reality that I might have to wear glasses. I don't want it. すごく大嫌いですよ。やだ。I took care of my eyes so hard just so I never have to wear glasses again. I'm saying again because I did used to have glasses as a kid. but I kinda did bad things to it so I have to remove them. so my naughtiness actually paied off and corrected my astigmatism as a kid. I don't want to wear glasses for reals :( I don't want :( so here is what I look like now because Kate was basically scaring me yesterday that it's my eyes that might be the reason for my almost constant head aches. すごく欲しくない。I hope these lessen the headaches even if I feel stupid. whatever works.
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I don't know why but I feel like I should have explained more on the PPS on the previous post. Well DMM was putting up notices that they want teachers to have the TOEFL, IELTS, and just yesterday EIKEN tags. Last week, I expressed interest and took the tests to see if I could have the tags, I sure hope I get them because I feel it would make others feel comfortable to have my classes. I mean I'm not good at business but recently I've been feeling pretty good at talking about business with those that request it. but better not jinx it, I still feel like I have a long way to go. Sometimes I feel bad and think maybe the people from the office would think of me as someone who's greedy. I'm not really. I just always remember what I used to say to myself back when I was in GnGn, to always try opportunities I see. If it works then awesome if not, it's great as well because I know the pessimistic me tried and I didn't close my door to that opportunity. I know I can't be a hypocrite and say I say yes to every opportunity, because there are some opportunities that I do want to try but end up saying no or wishing I can say yes to them later rather than now. For the ones I see where it can just add rather than really change my dynamics, I do them. More because I want to challenge myself and see if I can do it and improve myself. If I do get a tag, I hope you guys think of it as me working hard. Because I really try my best and see if I can be someone who anyone can go to if they need help. I'm not sure if I can get those tags but I can let you guys know I'm doing it with your needs in mind. I hope I see you guys soon! Inspiration for later.
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Hi. A while ago I was in an interview and it made me realize why I was unhappy with what I have now. It's not that I'm not happy teaching it's more like I'm not used to just having this job and not do anything else but this. Most of you guys probably know or if you guys like read further to last year that I worked for GnGn, when I was working there, I wasn't just a teacher, I had other jobs to keep me occupied, other tasks that make me feel happy. I didn't know it was that feeling until I had this interview earlier and somehow I feel happy she made me realize that unidentified hole in me. It makes real sense now as to why I feel really unsettled and not really happy with just teaching. I was so used to having more than one thing to do and to look forward to, like if I get tired of doing one thing I can switch to the other whenever I feel like it. so uhm yeah, you're asking what's the quote above supposed to be? Well the thing is, honestly? having 2 jobs a the same time is very taxing and I didn't realize until a while ago despite me getting sick and travelling far just for work, I enjoyed every moment of it and you guys can probably guess by now why right? There are people who made it very worth it. If I'm going to be honest I think I found someone who might also be like that. I kinda hope she doesn't look at my blog right now and I'll be embarrassed if she does. I'm gonna hope she forgets to look at my blog but I really just wanted to share and to let everybody know that it's actually very important and very comfortable if you find a boss who makes working worthwhile, I certainly didn't feel like I was working, they were there with me, and I hope maybe she can be like that too.
PS. I realize how embarrassing my blog looks like right now. I hope she still considers me, I mean look at that paint made edit I did. I stupidly need a good editor right now. I'm going to facepalm all night. lol.
PPS. I'll try to have lots of tags for teaching. I tried TOEFL, IELTS, and later I'm going to try to have/apply for the EIKEN tag. Wish me well guys! I want to teach you guys more stuff! :D
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